Dear Zohida,

Hello again, i know very a lot of things happened your life, i know i am kinda wierd person that you never encountered, i know nobody you saw only for 2times told things that i told you, but i just want to tell you what happened exactly, honestly i am person that i just don't wanna tell it by words, i just always want it to express things that with my action, but as you saw, my plans never happened, only plan of Allah happened and it will happen, and i am very grateful for that,during 4 months a lot of things happened in my life, someone born in my family, someone passed away...

but during the moment those days i just asked one thing from the Allah "correct path"— "what should i do next? " and one day the wonderful thing happened, in my life nobody told things what should i do,i would just ignore them or i would just don't listen them, but the day after prayer stranger came to me and told me that i should tell those things that i told you.Yeah i know you can just think that he is kind a person who just listen strangers, no i don't.

But this day it felt different,for me it was message from Allah, therefore i did it for the first time in my life, i put trust on Allah,i did tawakkul. I know your mom or your sister or probably your friend told you smth and you decided to follow their advice.But what thing happens next i don't know, i just wanna make sure that thing i should do should be in halal way so result will be from Allah.What happens next i don't really think about it, because the moment you came to my life, everything is just changed, i am trying to better man not just a boy who is just wanna live for himself.I know you are running away from me, and i respect it,But the question is why do you run away from the guy whose intention is clear and told everything truthful?The most hated habit in my life is telling the lie,i always try to tell truth.

As i told you wonderful things are happening in my life,do you remember when you came hashar, you probably thought i wouldn't come right? But you were right i just felt sleep that day and smth woke me up, and i rushed to go hashar(but night before the day i decided not to go) and as you experienced we entered Mosque in same time, i just saw you but i didn't believe it,i just wanted to explain everything to yourself,but i thought you would be very angry and wouldn't come again because of me, i didn't want someone who was doing good and they decide to stop doing good because of me.

i know you are very angry from me, maybe you felt very sad, even though you don't wanna see me,i am not giving up.Yeah i am not perfect, maybe i am not the rich enough,maybe i don't have knowledge that you would specifically want.But the thing is everyone is not perfect, everyone has their own drawbacks.So the question is will you keep push me away forever? Will you stop coming Hashar or charity because i could be there?Will you change doing good things because of someone you met only twice(three times maybe)?

I hope you will read it and find it, because it is the first letter in my life and i want to put this letter to Allah's plan that if it is good, you will see that yourself if it is not let it stay unseen.

Best Regards

The weird guy who fell every time he saw you -_-